Thankless Job

I’ve said it at least a zillion times and I will say it again… Motherhood is not for the faint of heart. Especially when you figure in divorce. Your kids will break your heart (sometimes without even realizing it) and they won’t even blink. It is more than being unappreciated, which believe me there is that too. It is the “I want to live with Dad” that kills you ever time.
My boys think I’m mean and awful and why shouldn’t they. I’m the person who makes them do their chores, bathe, eat things they don’t want to. I make them do their reading and homework every night. I tell them we can’t afford to do somethings that they want to do. Seriously what’s not to like, right.
And then their is my ex, who comes out shining like the bumper of a brand new car. He has the money to do whatever (except of course help pay for his portion of child care), he takes them out to eat, he lets them get away with whatever they do. There is no punishment at Dad’s house. Sounds awesome, right!!
I get so frustrated I break down and cry. Like last night when all my husband could do was tell me it would be okay, tell me they are better off with me, tell me he loves me.

November 8th, 2007 at 7:02 pm
My parents divorced when I was eight - my father paid child suport ONCE only and my mum had to clean toilets to get by. My father always had cash when we went to visit, no discipline, late nights - but my mum is the one who gave me away at my wedding…hang in there!